Yo so..

it's been one month since we left our shithouse and parted ways with my mates Jean and Micha.
Moved into a new house with 2 awesome vegans and 2 carnivore Portugese.. humans.
4 days after I left my shit and went to Barcelona.

following the heart since 1988








at the end of the day, she's really all that matters

mow arises poli.

doing something I don't hate, with someone that doesn't annoy me, in a city that doesn't know me.

Dear Maxie.

Long since the day, i last saw your face
the distance between gets a little hard to bare sometimes
can't seem to keep my two feet on the ground
constantly wandering, these are the ties that bind
ink in the skin to remind, so defined
never healed and never out of mind
you are always by my side
maps drawn by hand to direct, so complex
lead the way when we're far apart
seas may divide, mountains block our view
so far out of sight, you are always in my thoughts
seas may divide, mountains block our view
you are always in my thought
and though we are so far apart, you are always here in my heart
i'm singing this song for you, you mean so much
you opened my eyes, opened my mind, you changed the world for me
i'm writing these words for you, you mean so much
you opened my eyes, opened my mind, you changed the world for me
singing this song, writing these words for you
i hope you'll hear, i hope you know
and as the sun it sets today, your star will always lead the way, anywhere
and though we're always far apart, you're present here in my heart, everywhere

perimeno posse kai posse na se do


sincerely yours.

cheers Nick

my love. my way.

fuck, I miss this band.

hence my self-loathing.

my buddy Fredo just hooked me up with the footage he shot at Ieperfest, this is one of the results, amazing
seeing this makes takes me back and makes all the bullshit worthwhile. I just wish I had more time to spend with friends you only get to see one's a year.

This years Ieper was really intense, most of worked about 20 hours per day for about a week straight and who knows how much more weeks before and after. It's been the third year we've been working with the same steady crew and it has grown on us. We have our differences but we know who's capable for what job and who is the right dude for the other.
I love working for Ieper because to put it in a simple way, we're never content with what we do each year. Whatever flaw we find has to be gone by the next and so on and on. We strive to get the job done as good as we can and give it a full 100%.
some will never know.
(especially the douchebags who trash the campingsite year after year)

but, you choose you lose.
I had my first re-examination 2 days after the fest, considering I hadn't had a decent sleep in weeks and working at the restaurant again I failed all 5 of them, which kinda blows but since I can take 'em up in my second year it's all fine and fucking dandy.

so the past few weeks have been a mental rollercoaster ride, with some highs and some remarkable lows.

Yesterday I had learned through the newspaper and some calls to friends that 3 guys I used to be in high school with crashed their car into a fucking tree, killing them all on impact. I knew JP who was driving the car pretty well, he used to sing and play guitar in one of the first little bands I went to see and of whom I bought my first demo.
"Never thought or wondered why,
bad people live, good people die.
Some will go and others stay,
it’s all fucked up in any way. "
a piece of his lyrics. shit.


it's tearing me up whether I should be sad or angry, knowing JP was most likely under the influence of various substances doing about 130 kph.
he left behind his girl and 2 kids.


fuck this.

The simple way out of all the little brick dead ends we scratch our nails against.

The following were taken in Norway, July fifth till July thirteenth.
Spiritual make or break, peace of mind, quality time for the mind, thoughts and dreams.

Vegan hiking, packing over 10kg in food, huge nomz.
Best view when taking a dump.
Midnight sun, insomnia.
Listening to black metal in the land of black metal.
Stalked by cows, reindeers and mosquitos, oh how I hate thou.
Women with hair as white as snow, eyes as blue as the fjords, oh how I love thou.
I've started this journey for a reason, it's funny how enough reasoning can put an end to it.


random order.











































DestinedForAnything


"the self-love i can hide or reweld by the biblical saw of losing myself and finding myself."