I'll never look at winter the same again since I've spent it in the shithouse I'm in now. It's been about a year since I've moved here and last years winter wasn't that cold and long like this years. First thing you need to know about me, I fucking hate snow, it's wet and cold and besides the ability to throw it in somebody's face there's nothing 'cool' about it.
I'm lucky I haven't chrashed my face and knees into the city streets because of the ice, thats my second, I hate ice
I'd rather be trapped under ice than above, when you're under you are at least ovrwhelmed by cold making you numb to everything else. Slight downside is that you'll probably suffer from hypothermia and freeze to a sudden death, ace plan.
Over the winter something in our roof must've broken due to minus 0 temparatures, cause by now all snow and ice is melting down and is seeping it's way through the roof in the kitchen and bathroom, seriously fuck this house and fuck my cheap ass landlord.
So I've been here for about a year, moving in with Micha and Jean.
Since then a lot has changed for me and I feel a different person. I never took to much for granted in the past, or at least so I taught. When I left home last year I was 20, being a college dropout without a relevant education or anything that makes me stand out to be picked over someone else for functions I figured I could apply for. After struggling for a few months, thinking over and retracing my steps I rised above all of it, got me a part time job in a vegetarian restaurant and going back to college in order to persue my original goal from nearly 3 years ago, graduate a English - History highschool teacher. I passed 5 of my finals and failed 2. which is for being me quite an achievement.
2 years ago I had a life figured out for me, I just had to study and care about nothing else, still I failed all of my finals. This time it's all on my shoulders and I'm working/studying and I'm actually getting good grades...
Life's giving me a peek on how the bright side looks like cause I'm getting my scholarship after all, so lots of sleepness nights and working overtime have paid off.
right now I am yet again at the point of reading what I wrote and deleting every word I've written, cause really who cares... I care and it felt good to get this off my chest
my goal for 2010 is trying to do a band, and get things off my chest in another more musically, lyrical way and stop littering the internetz with crap like this
Besides all this stuff going down, I'm just living life, taking it in and try to make the most of it. I do have some things bugging me but I've learned to deal with them or getting them out of my way. Life is cold but good. Ieperfest winteredition went quite well although I really didn't wanna show up, it was a good night without too much bullshit, looking forward to the summeredition halfway august.
Seeing Floorpunch tonight, Kewl.
Summer here I come, destined for anything.
listen to life long tragedy and the beatles, for fuck's sake
