my love. my way.

fuck, I miss this band.

hence my self-loathing.

my buddy Fredo just hooked me up with the footage he shot at Ieperfest, this is one of the results, amazing
seeing this makes takes me back and makes all the bullshit worthwhile. I just wish I had more time to spend with friends you only get to see one's a year.

This years Ieper was really intense, most of worked about 20 hours per day for about a week straight and who knows how much more weeks before and after. It's been the third year we've been working with the same steady crew and it has grown on us. We have our differences but we know who's capable for what job and who is the right dude for the other.
I love working for Ieper because to put it in a simple way, we're never content with what we do each year. Whatever flaw we find has to be gone by the next and so on and on. We strive to get the job done as good as we can and give it a full 100%.
some will never know.
(especially the douchebags who trash the campingsite year after year)

but, you choose you lose.
I had my first re-examination 2 days after the fest, considering I hadn't had a decent sleep in weeks and working at the restaurant again I failed all 5 of them, which kinda blows but since I can take 'em up in my second year it's all fine and fucking dandy.

so the past few weeks have been a mental rollercoaster ride, with some highs and some remarkable lows.

Yesterday I had learned through the newspaper and some calls to friends that 3 guys I used to be in high school with crashed their car into a fucking tree, killing them all on impact. I knew JP who was driving the car pretty well, he used to sing and play guitar in one of the first little bands I went to see and of whom I bought my first demo.
"Never thought or wondered why,
bad people live, good people die.
Some will go and others stay,
it’s all fucked up in any way. "
a piece of his lyrics. shit.


it's tearing me up whether I should be sad or angry, knowing JP was most likely under the influence of various substances doing about 130 kph.
he left behind his girl and 2 kids.


fuck this.